Khair hum baat kar rahe the Ashram ke innaugration ki. Mujhe samajh me nahi a raha tha ki bade swami ji ke samne mai kis tarah apne saath sahwaas ka prastaw rakhoongi. Kuchh bhi ho Swami ji the to anjaan hi. Unke samne ekdum se sambhog ka prastaw rakhna kisi bhi gharelu aurat ke liye ek badi baat thi.
Sewakram ji ke saath shareerik sambandh to ek tarah se chhal se shuru hua tha.
Ratna na hoti to shayad is sambandh ki neev hi nahi pad pati. Ratna ne hum dono ke beech kisi setu ka kaam kiya tha. Ye alag baat hai maine unke saath sahwas ko apni kalpana se bhi jyada enjoy kiya tha. Lekin kisi anjan admi se pranay nivedan wo bhi pahli mulakat me. Pata nahi wo mujhe kya samjhenge. Mai is tarah ke kai shanshayon se ghiri hui thi.
Man me kuchh jhijhak bhi thi. Lekin Ratna ke aur Sewakramji ke samjha ne par kuchh man me tasalli hui. Ratna ne Swami ji ki itni tareef ki unke kisi ghode ke saman ling ki itni vyakhya ki, ki mai unse apne pahle Milan ki din me jagte huye bhi sapne dekhne lagi. Mujhe aisa lagne laga ki agar maine bade swami ji ke saath sex nahi kiya to mere is Santosh ke hi koi mayne nahi rah jayenge.
Fir bhi ek dar sa bana hua tha ki Dev ko jis din pata chalega ki uska pahle bachche ka baap wo nahin koi aur hai to pata nahi wo kaise react karenge. Lekin Asram join karne ke baad unke hawbhaw se lag gaya tha ki wo kuchh nahi bolenge. Aur poori ghatna ko sahajta se lenge.
Khair Dev bhi innaugration ki taiyaari me vyast ho gaya. lekin achanak hi kisi jaroori kaam se use Kolkata jana pada. Dus - pandrah din ka programm tha. Ye khabar mere liye bahut sukoon lekar ayee. Is khabar ko sunkar meri saans me saans ayee kyonki ab mai kisi bhi tarah ke karya ke liye ajad thi. Kisi se ab koi rok tok ya khatra nahi tha.
Bus teen din hi baki the karyakram shuru hone me. Jane se pahle mere kahne par Tripti (us ashram ki ek sanyaasin) ayee aur Dev ko kah diya ki mujhe Ashram ke kaamo me busy rakhegi isliye ho sakta hai phone par mai nahin uplabdh ho sakoon.
Dev uske aur Ratna ke manane par khushi khushi maan gaya. Badle me unhonne Dev ko jane se pahle ek haseen raat di jisme raat bhar na Dev soya aur na Tripti aur Ratna. Don one subah tak Dev ko jhinjhod kar rakh diya. Us dauraan mai sewak raam ke kamre me hi thi.
Mai ghar me ab kam samay bitati aur din bhar Asram me rahne lagi. Wahan ek se ek mard the jinse mai apne badan ki bhookh mitati thi. Meri halat sex ki kisi bhookhi nymphomaniac ki tarah ho gayi thi. Ab mera man kis ek ke sambhog se nahi bharta.
Jab tak ghanto ki chudai nahi hoti tab tak mere jism ki aag nahi bujh pati thi. Din me do chaar baar sambhog huye bina mujhe shanti nahi milti thi. Sewakram ji ne mujhe ji bhar kar bhoga tha.
Sirf Sewakram ji hi kyon us ashram me koi aisa nahi bacha tha jisne mujhe choda na ho. Ashram ke har shishya ne apne veery se mera badan ko ranga tha. Har shakhs ne apni bhookh mujh se mityaee. Ab to sirf Bade swami ji ka intezaar tha.
Un logon ke munh se rojroj Bade guruji ke size aur unke stamina ke bare me sun sun kar mai geeli ho jati thi. Kai baar raat me akele me unhe yaad karke apni ungliyon se hi apni pyaas mitati thi.
Karyakram ke ek din pahle Ashram ke sansthapak bade guruji shri Trilokanand ji padhare. Uff kya chamak thi unke chehre par. Kya vyaktitva tha unka. Mai to kisi chakor ki tarah unhe dekhti hi rah gayee. Unke ek ek ang se paurushta photo rahi thi. Jaisa unka kad tha waisi hi kathi. Unki boli to aur hi jyada meethi thi. Isme koi ashcarya nahi ki job hi ek baar unse milta wo unke sammohan me na bandh jata ho.
Shaam ko khana khane ke baad jab wo apne kamre me gaye. To Ratna mujhe lekar unke kamre me gayee. Ratna ne pahle se hi mujhe sab samja rakha tha ki unke samne kya karna hai aur kaise karna hai.
Mere badan par us waqt sirf ek jheeni sadi thi. Sari ke alawa mujhe kuchh bhi nahi pahanne diya tha. Unke kamre me pravesh karne se pahle Ratna mujhe ek kamre me le gayee aur wahan mujhe apne androoni vastra khol kar rakh dene ko kaha.
Maine waisa hi kiya. Maine apne sare kapde utar kar sirf sari ko badan par lappet liya. Sari bhi aisi thi ki mera ek ek ang beparda tha. Ratna ne mere poore badan ko ghuma fira kar nihara. Fir mere kapdon ko tah karke wahan maujood ek shelf me rakh di.
Samne lage adamkad aine me maine apne aap ko nihara. Mai to bala ki khoobsoorat lag rahi thi us paridhan me. Mere har chal par mere dono bhari bhari stan idhar udhar uchhal rahe the. Ratna ne wahan mujhe stool par bitha kar mere chehre par halka sa makeup kiya.
Badan par ek perfume bhi laga diya. Aisa lag raha tha mano Ratna mujhe apne priyatam se milne le jane ke liye taiyaar kar rahi ho. Tabhi ek shishya akar dher sari gulaab ki pankhudiya de gaya. Ratna ne mere hathon ko jod kar usme gulab ki pankhudiyan bhar deei thi. Fir mujhe lekar wo Swamiji ke kamre tak gayee.
Mujhe darwaje par rukne ko kahkar pal bhar ke liye Ratna andar gayee. Mai us waqt chupchaap bahar khadi rahi.Kuchh hi der me wo bahar akar mujhe wapas apne saath lekar kamre me le gayi.
Kamre me ek bheeni bheeni sugandh failee hui thi. Samne Ek uncha bistar laga tha. Jis par makhmal ki chadar ke upar sher ki chhal bichhi thi. Swami ji apne sare vastr khol kar bilkul nagn awastha me bistar par baithe huye the.
To be contd.......
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