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Ek din hum teeno lambi chudai ke baad nagn baithe baten kar rahe the to maine Sewakramji se poochha, “ Ek baat batayen guruji, aap meri yoni ke andar apna ras kyon nahi bhar dete. Meri bahut tamanna hai ki aap ye dher sara ras meri yoni me dalen jisse meri yoni ki pyaas bujh jaye. Mai chahti hoon ki apka ras meri yoni se chhalak chhalak kar bahar rise.”
“ Nahi Disha hum aisa nahi kar sakte. Jab tak Swami ji ka ras tumhari kokh ko bhar nahi deta aur wo tumhe diksha nahi dedete unka koi bhi shishya ye kaam nahi kar sakta. Hum sabse pahle sab mahilaon par unka adhikaar hai. Pahle unka prasaad tumhe graham karna padega. Tumhari yoni me discharge karne ka pahla adhikar sirf aur sirf unka hai. Fir hum sabka.” Sewakram ji ne kaha
Ratna Didi ne bataya ki kuchh dino me ashram ke sabse bade guru shri shri Trilokanand ji padhar rahe hain. Wo hi mujhe deeksha dekar ashram me shamil karenge. Mai ye sunkar bahut khush huyee.
“ Guruji se tum khud apne sanstha me shamil karne ke liye anurodh karna.” Ratna ne age kaha “ Aur unse kahna ki wo apna mahaprasad dekar tumhe ashirwad den. Tum lena chahogi unka mahaprasad”
“ Ye mahaprasad kya hota hia?” mai kuchh samajh nahi payee.
“ Are buddhu, Swami ji ka mahaprasad bahut kismet wale hi graham kar pate hain. Swamiji se mahaprasad pana har kisi ki kismet me nahi hota. Ye unke prati poori lagan se poorn samarpan bhawna se hi hasil ho sakta hai. Ye koi khane ya peene ki vastu nahi hai. Ise to apni kokh me graham karna padta hai. Unka mahaprasad yahan padta hai.” Kahkar Ratna ne meri nabhi ke nichle hisse ko chhua “ Use nau maheene tak apni kokh me sahej kar rakhna padta hai tab ja kar unka mahaprasad phool ka roop graham karta hai.
Unke jaisa ek divya santaan ka ashirwaad milta hai. kab tak yun hi akeli rahogi? Ab to ek sundar sa bachcha parivaar me ane ka samay ho gaya hai. Apni kokh me sabse pahle gurudev ka ashirwaad lena. Tumhara Santosh dhanya ho jayega.”
“ Ashram me kai mahilaon ko swami ji ka ashirwaad mil chukka hai. Unke veerya me itni shakti hai ki phool kafi tandurust aur meghavi hota hai. Ab tumhe bhi to shaadi ko kitne din ho chuke hain. Abhi tak akeli hi ho. Tumhe nahi lagta jindagi ka soona pan?” Sewakram ne poochha.
Mai chup chaap khadi rahi. Kucch der asmanjasyata me rahi kyonki iske side effects bhi ho sakte hain. Pata nahi Dev ise kis tarah le. Kahin iska parinaam hamare vaivahit sambandhon me shaq ke beej na paida kar den. Kahin hamara sambandh hi toot jaye. Kya Dev is tarah ke bachche ko sweekar kar payega. Itne din to hamare Santosh me kisi ki kilkaari nahi goonj payee. Aise hi god bhar jaye to burai kya hai.
Khoon to mera hi hoga na. Mai is khushi ke liye kuchh bhi kar sakti hoon.
Maine apne sir ko uthaye bina hami me sir hila diya.
Ashram ke inaugration ke mauke par poore ashram ko bahut sajaya gaya tha. Mai bhi aksar ashram me chali jati thi. Jaisa ki maine pahle bataya ki Ratnaji aur Sewakramji ke bahlane fuslane par Dev bhi ashram ka shishya ban gaya tha. Use ashram ki shishyaon ne aisa apna rang dikhaya ki Dev to bus lattu ho kar rah gaya.
Waise bhi shuru se hi uski adat thi idhar udhar munh marne ki upar se aksar shahar se bahar rahne ki majboori sone pe suhaga ka kaam karti thi. Pata nahi meri najron se door hokar kab kiske saath gukchharre udata hoga.
Dev ko maine apne sexual relations ke bare me kuchh bhi nahi bataya tha. Mai shuru shuru me jhijhak rahi thi. Kuchh bhi ho kisi pati ke liye unki patni ka doosre admiyon se shareerik sambandh ke bare me jankari dena hamesha khatrewala kaam raha hai.
Mere extra martial affairs ke bare me dheere dheere use sab pata chala isliye usne ise sahajta se sweekar kar liya. Ab hum dono jante the ki doosra ashram me kya kar raha hoga. Magar ek do baar apsi sex ke dauraan fantasize karne ke alawa hum dono ek doosre ko is bare me tokte nahi the.
Waise usne kabhi bhi mujhe kisi baat se mana nahi kiya tha. Wo khud hi mujhe exposure ke liye uksata rahta tha. Doosro ke samne meri numaish karne me use maja ata tha. Hum jab honeymoon par Goa gaye the to usne mujhe wahan public beach par two piece bikni me rahne ko kaha tha. Bikni bhi wo khud hi pasand kar laya tha. Wo itni chhoti thi ki lagbhag poora badan hi nagn dikh jata tha. Dress material bhi kafi maheen tha aur halke rang ka hone se wo bheegne ke baad pardarshi film ki tarah badan se chipak jata tha.
Mujhe to shuru shuru me bahut gussa ata tha uski in chhichhori harkaton par aur uske is tarah ke pagalpan ke shauq par. Ise le kar hum logon me bahut jhagda huya tha. Magar baad me mujhe hi unke age jhukna pada. Mujhe apne badan ki numaish karne me sharm ati thi kyonki mai dehat se thi, hamare yaha ladkiyon par bahut pabandi rahti thi. Lekin Husband ki khushi ki khatir maine jaldi hi apne ko badal liya.
To be contd.......
Ek din hum teeno lambi chudai ke baad nagn baithe baten kar rahe the to maine Sewakramji se poochha, “ Ek baat batayen guruji, aap meri yoni ke andar apna ras kyon nahi bhar dete. Meri bahut tamanna hai ki aap ye dher sara ras meri yoni me dalen jisse meri yoni ki pyaas bujh jaye. Mai chahti hoon ki apka ras meri yoni se chhalak chhalak kar bahar rise.”
“ Nahi Disha hum aisa nahi kar sakte. Jab tak Swami ji ka ras tumhari kokh ko bhar nahi deta aur wo tumhe diksha nahi dedete unka koi bhi shishya ye kaam nahi kar sakta. Hum sabse pahle sab mahilaon par unka adhikaar hai. Pahle unka prasaad tumhe graham karna padega. Tumhari yoni me discharge karne ka pahla adhikar sirf aur sirf unka hai. Fir hum sabka.” Sewakram ji ne kaha
Ratna Didi ne bataya ki kuchh dino me ashram ke sabse bade guru shri shri Trilokanand ji padhar rahe hain. Wo hi mujhe deeksha dekar ashram me shamil karenge. Mai ye sunkar bahut khush huyee.
“ Guruji se tum khud apne sanstha me shamil karne ke liye anurodh karna.” Ratna ne age kaha “ Aur unse kahna ki wo apna mahaprasad dekar tumhe ashirwad den. Tum lena chahogi unka mahaprasad”
“ Ye mahaprasad kya hota hia?” mai kuchh samajh nahi payee.
“ Are buddhu, Swami ji ka mahaprasad bahut kismet wale hi graham kar pate hain. Swamiji se mahaprasad pana har kisi ki kismet me nahi hota. Ye unke prati poori lagan se poorn samarpan bhawna se hi hasil ho sakta hai. Ye koi khane ya peene ki vastu nahi hai. Ise to apni kokh me graham karna padta hai. Unka mahaprasad yahan padta hai.” Kahkar Ratna ne meri nabhi ke nichle hisse ko chhua “ Use nau maheene tak apni kokh me sahej kar rakhna padta hai tab ja kar unka mahaprasad phool ka roop graham karta hai.
Unke jaisa ek divya santaan ka ashirwaad milta hai. kab tak yun hi akeli rahogi? Ab to ek sundar sa bachcha parivaar me ane ka samay ho gaya hai. Apni kokh me sabse pahle gurudev ka ashirwaad lena. Tumhara Santosh dhanya ho jayega.”
“ Ashram me kai mahilaon ko swami ji ka ashirwaad mil chukka hai. Unke veerya me itni shakti hai ki phool kafi tandurust aur meghavi hota hai. Ab tumhe bhi to shaadi ko kitne din ho chuke hain. Abhi tak akeli hi ho. Tumhe nahi lagta jindagi ka soona pan?” Sewakram ne poochha.
Mai chup chaap khadi rahi. Kucch der asmanjasyata me rahi kyonki iske side effects bhi ho sakte hain. Pata nahi Dev ise kis tarah le. Kahin iska parinaam hamare vaivahit sambandhon me shaq ke beej na paida kar den. Kahin hamara sambandh hi toot jaye. Kya Dev is tarah ke bachche ko sweekar kar payega. Itne din to hamare Santosh me kisi ki kilkaari nahi goonj payee. Aise hi god bhar jaye to burai kya hai.
Khoon to mera hi hoga na. Mai is khushi ke liye kuchh bhi kar sakti hoon.
Maine apne sir ko uthaye bina hami me sir hila diya.
Ashram ke inaugration ke mauke par poore ashram ko bahut sajaya gaya tha. Mai bhi aksar ashram me chali jati thi. Jaisa ki maine pahle bataya ki Ratnaji aur Sewakramji ke bahlane fuslane par Dev bhi ashram ka shishya ban gaya tha. Use ashram ki shishyaon ne aisa apna rang dikhaya ki Dev to bus lattu ho kar rah gaya.
Waise bhi shuru se hi uski adat thi idhar udhar munh marne ki upar se aksar shahar se bahar rahne ki majboori sone pe suhaga ka kaam karti thi. Pata nahi meri najron se door hokar kab kiske saath gukchharre udata hoga.
Dev ko maine apne sexual relations ke bare me kuchh bhi nahi bataya tha. Mai shuru shuru me jhijhak rahi thi. Kuchh bhi ho kisi pati ke liye unki patni ka doosre admiyon se shareerik sambandh ke bare me jankari dena hamesha khatrewala kaam raha hai.
Mere extra martial affairs ke bare me dheere dheere use sab pata chala isliye usne ise sahajta se sweekar kar liya. Ab hum dono jante the ki doosra ashram me kya kar raha hoga. Magar ek do baar apsi sex ke dauraan fantasize karne ke alawa hum dono ek doosre ko is bare me tokte nahi the.
Waise usne kabhi bhi mujhe kisi baat se mana nahi kiya tha. Wo khud hi mujhe exposure ke liye uksata rahta tha. Doosro ke samne meri numaish karne me use maja ata tha. Hum jab honeymoon par Goa gaye the to usne mujhe wahan public beach par two piece bikni me rahne ko kaha tha. Bikni bhi wo khud hi pasand kar laya tha. Wo itni chhoti thi ki lagbhag poora badan hi nagn dikh jata tha. Dress material bhi kafi maheen tha aur halke rang ka hone se wo bheegne ke baad pardarshi film ki tarah badan se chipak jata tha.
Mujhe to shuru shuru me bahut gussa ata tha uski in chhichhori harkaton par aur uske is tarah ke pagalpan ke shauq par. Ise le kar hum logon me bahut jhagda huya tha. Magar baad me mujhe hi unke age jhukna pada. Mujhe apne badan ki numaish karne me sharm ati thi kyonki mai dehat se thi, hamare yaha ladkiyon par bahut pabandi rahti thi. Lekin Husband ki khushi ki khatir maine jaldi hi apne ko badal liya.
To be contd.......
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