"swami ji……aap khush hain na?” mai ek dum se udaas ho gayee,” mai pyaasi hoon guruji…..mera ang ang apse Milan ke liye fadak raha hai. Dobara mujhe kab bula rahe ho? Raaton ko neend nahi ati.bus mai bistar par let kar chhatpatati rahti hoon. Aapne ye kaisa nasha lagaya hai mujhe ki ab mere pati bhi mujhe shaant nahi kar pate hain. Bechare koshish me thak kar so jate hain."
"mere ashram ke dwar tumhare liye har samay khule rahte hain Rash. aur
tumhare liye to mere bedroom ka dwar bhi khule hi rahte hai. Kafi dino se tumhari raah dekh raha tha. Aaj apne aap ko nahi samhaal saka aur tumhe phone kar hi diya. Kisi ko batana nahi ki triloki jiske darshan ke liye mahilayen tarasti hain khud age badh kar tumhe phone kiya hai. Tumme kuchh khaas hai jo maine aaj tak kisi me nahi dekha. Waise kab a rahi ho ashram?”
“ mera bhi man to maan aap ki bahon me an eke liya machal raha hai. Jaise hi mauka milega. Mai daud kar apki bahon me a jaungi.”
“Mai tumhara intezaar karoonga devi jab sambhog sukh ki jaroorat mahsoos ho chali ana. Jindagi ki is apadhapi me kuchh waqt sirf apne liye nikaalo. Man me jism me ek nayee sfoorti daudne lagegi."
"swamiji apne to mujhe bandh kar rakh diya hai apne moh pash me. Apke sath gujare har pal hamesha meri ankhon ke samne ghoomte rahte hain. Apke sanidhya ki lalsa badhti hi jati hai. Aap prem ke dewta hain. Sach kahoon mai kabhi kisi ke sampark me akar itni uuejit nahi hui jitna apke saath rah kar."
"Kavita, Devi ye moh maya cheej hi aisi hai. Aadmi me ek mrigtrishna ka sanchaar kar deta hai. Fir to admi poore hosho hawas me uske sammohan ka gulam ho kar rah jata jai. Khair devi tumhare patidev kaise hain. Unko kabhi ashram me lekar ao.
Hum unse milna chahenge. Unhe kuchh shak to nahi hua? tumne bataya to nahi?"
" Nahi swami ji maine unhe kuchh bhi nahi bataya. lekin mai chahti hoon ki ap unhe bhi apne ashram me bandh lo jisse mujhe apse sambandh banaye rakhne ke liye koi luka chhipi nahi karni pade."
"Sahi socha tumne. Devi kisi din bhi unhe sath le ao Rampur ashram me. Mera vishwas hai wo bhi yahin ke hokar rah jayenge. is kaam me meri khas shishya Rajni bahut mahir hai. Wo bhi khushi se tumhare pati dev se milna chahegi. tum mili ho na usse? Bahut sexy ladki hai. Din bhar sambhog karte rah sakti hai wo. Tum dekhna tumhare pati dev kaise uski julfon me kho jate hain"
"Han swami ji. Mai koshish karti hoon unhe bhi ek baar ashram me lekar an eke liye.
Aur mujhe kab bula rahe ho. Swami ji aapse baat karke mera badan jalne laga hai. Mera an gang fadak raha hai."
“ tumhare liye to ashram ke aur mere dil ke darwaje khule huye hain devi. Ashram ke baki shishya bhi tumhare bare me pooch rahe the. Ek din me hi sabko apna gulaam bana diya tumne. Waise kab a rahi ho?”
“Jab bhi aap bulayenge mai daudi aungi. Doosre shishyon ki baat chhodiye. Aap apni baat kijiye. Aap kitna yaad karte hain mujhe.”
“hahaha….main?” swami ji baat ghumane ki koshish Karen lage.
“ Swamiji mujhe apke munh se sunna hai. Please kahiye na ki mujhe kitna miss karte hain aap?”
“ab mai tumhe kya bataun devi. Bus kuchh bhi samajh lo.”
“nahi dev aise nahi pleeeese ek baar mujhe batao. Sach nahi to jhoothe hi kah do na ki aap mujhe kitna yaad karte hain.” Mai kisi nayee dulhan ki tarah ithlane lagi. Jaise wo mere guruji na hokar mere koi purane premi hon.
Mai hafte do hafte me ek baar Ashram ka daura kar hi ati thi. Swamiji mujhe pakar bahut khush hote the. Mai wahan jab tak rukti kisi na kisi se sambhog karti rahti thi. Swamiji mujh par apna dher sara pyaar udhelte the. Mai bhi unke saath poore josh ke saath khelti thi. Mai khud unke upar chadh kar unko chodne lagti thi.
Swamiji bus lete lete maje lete rahte the aur mera utawlapan dekh kar muskurate rahte the.
Maine Santosh ko kai baar kaha Rampura chalne ke liye magar wo samay nahi nikal paya. Wo jana to chahta tha magar har baar koi na koi badha beech me a hi jati aur uska mere saath chalne ka program cancel ho jata tha.
Mai har baar swami ji se koi na koi jhooth kah deti thi. Agle maheene ek din fir swami ji ka phone aya to maine bataya ki hum programm nahi bana paye.
"apne pati se bat karao devi" Swami ji ne kaha
Maine phone Santosh ko pakda diya. Ye pahla mauka tha jab Swami ji Santosh se ya Santosh Swami ji se baat kar rahe the. Santosh kafi der tak unse baat karta raha. Mai utsukta se samne baithi hui unke chehre ko taktaki bandhe dekh rahi thi ki jane kya baaten ho rahi hongi. Koi dus minut tak baten karne ke baad phone rakh kar Santosh ne kaha,
" tumhare swamiji agle shaniwar ko kisi utsav ko attend karne ke liye New Delhi jane wale hain. Waha bhi unka ek kafi bada ashram hai do din ka programm hai. unhone hume sath chalne ke liye nimantran diya hai."
Sunte hi mai khushi se bhar gayee mere badan me sihran daudne lagi. Lekin apni khushion par control karte hue maine poochha " to tumhara kya programm hai? Tumne kya socha unke nimantran ko sweekar karne ke bare me?"
"dekhta hoon kal boss se bat karke. waise tumne theek hi kaha tha. unki baton me aisa sammohan hai ki mai na nahi kar saka" wo mujhe dekh kar muskurane lage.
Agle di Santosh ne ghar akar bataya ki use chhutti mil gayee hai. Mai to khushi se chahk uthi. Ab mai apne tour ke bare me planning karne lagi.
Mataji ke paas bachche ko rakh kar hum guruji ke sath jane ki taiyaree karne lage. Mataji ne mujhe ashwast karte huye kaha,
“tu chinta mat karna. Tere bete ko mai samhaal loongi. Waise bhi sara din to mere hi paasrahta hai. Jao tum dono chhutti manao.”
Tay din shaam panch baje ek Luxary coach ghar ke samne akar ruki. Hum apna saman peechhe luggage box me rakh kar bus me sawar ho gaye.
Bus kya thi ek luxury ghar ki tarah thi wo. Poori tarah Air Conditioned thi. Bus me sirf teen row me 12 araamdeh seats the. Ye seats apas me judi hui thi mano sofa ho. Ek 2x2 seat darwaje ke paas aur do row ek dum peechhe. beech me letne ke liye berths bane the seats ki hight par. Us tarah nahi jaisa kisi night bus me hota hai.
Ek ek side me do berth ek ke age ek bane huye the. Un berths ke beech parda laga huya tha. Beech me passage chhuta hua tha. Aise lag raha tha ki seats beech ke berths par sone walon ke darshan ke liye lage huye hon. Driver ka cabin bilkul separate tha. Charon or tinted glass lage the jisse bahar se kisi ko kuchh najar nahi aye. Unpar se unpar bhari parde pade huye the. Bus ek chhota mota luxary ghar ki tarah lag raha tha.
Shaam ke chhah baj rahe the. Bus hume le kar chal padi. Koi dus barah ghante ka safar tha. Subah hum Delhi pahunchne wale the.
Humare bus me chadhte hi Guruji ne age badh kar hamara swagat kiya. Humne unke pao chhuye to unhon ne mere sir par hath fera aur Santosh ko apne gale se laga liya.
Santosh ko dekh kar lag raha tha wahan ke watavaran se bahut prabhawit hai. Swamiji ne unko apne sath Drawaje ke paas ki seats par bitha liya. Un seat ka munh peechhe ki or tha.
To be contd.....
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