Mai wahan se chalti hui station pahunchi wahan khadi ek train par chadh gayee. socha tha ki chalti train se kahin kood jaungi magar jigar me itni himmat na juta payee. Atmhatya karna bhi har kisi ke bas ki baat nahi hoti.
Mai ek seat par apne ghutno par sir rakhe pata nahi kis soch me doobi hui thi. Tabhi chaar gerua wastr me sadhu akar amne samne baith gaye. Mujhe pata hi nahi tha ki woe k reserved compartment tha. Train chalne ke kucch der baad TT a pahuncha. Mujhse ticket manga to mai ghabra kar idhar udhar dekhne lagi. Tabhi samne baith un sadhuon ke guruji ne apne batuye se paise nikaal kar TT ko ticket banane ko kaha.
“Kahan jana hai.” TT ne poochha. Mai chup rahi. Mujhe pata hi nahi tha ki mujhe jana kahan hai.
“Delhi tak ka bana do.” Swami ji ne kaha. Maine unka chehra dekha. Unke chehre me itna tej tha ki mai unse najren nahi mila payee.
Train chalne lagi thi. Dheere dheere wo mujse baten karne lage aur mai unse khilne lagi. Maine apni aap beeti unhe sunai to Swami ji ne mere sir par hath fera. Mujhe aisa laga maro bijli ki tarange unke hath se nikal kar mere jism me pravesh kar rahi hain.
“ Bus tum ne jindagi me bahut dukh jhele hain. Tum to apni jindagi samapt karne ja rahi thi. Humne tumhe bacha liya. To hamare kahe anusaar apni baki ki jindagi hamare hawale kar do. Mai raasta dikhaunga tume atmik such ka. Santosh ke sachche anand ka marg dikhaunga.” Kahte huye unhon ne mere maathe ko chuma.
Mai neeche baith kar unke charan chhoo kar unme apni shraddha aur sahmati jatayee.
Mai unke saath chalti hui Delhi chali aye. Yaha ashram ke watavaran me mai itni ghulmil gayee ki mujhme kisi baat ki koi chinta nahi rah gayee. yahan ke unmukt watavaran me rahte huye mai khud apne aap ko swami ji ki sewa me nyochhawar kar diya. Jis din inhon ne mujhe pahli baar chhua mujhe laga ki mera Santosh safal ho gaya hai.
“ Sach Rajni, tum bahut khushnaseeb ho jo akhir tak swamiji ki chhatra chhaya me a hi gayee. Swami ji us vishaal pedh ki tarah hain jis ki chhatra chhaya me ane wale har kisi ko sirf man ki thandak hi nahi balki tan ki bhookh se bhi nijat milti hai.” Maine Rajni ki hatheliyon ko apni hatheli se dabaya.
Tabhi ek admi ne akar bataya ki Swami ji ne mujhe bulaya hai. Maine Rajni se vida li aur us admi ke saath saath Swami ji ke kamre me pahunchi. Swami ji is waqt ek alag kamre me the. Is kamre me charon taraf sheesha laga hua tha. Mera aks har deewar par najar a raha tha. Kamre ke beech jameen par ek asan bichha tha.
Swami ji us asan par bilkul nagn baithe the. Unka ling poora tana hua unki janghon ke beech khada tha. Unki ankhen band thi magar eke k royan uttejna se fadak raha tha. Poore kamre me ek halki si roshni ho rahi thi aur pin drop silent tha. Yahan tak ki chalne firne se kapdon ke ragad khane ki awaaj bhi sunai de rahi thi.
Poore kamre me bhini bhini ek sugandh failee hui thi jisse kamre ka watavaran aur jyada nasheela ho raha tha. Aise watavaran me jab koi sex ki kamna kare to samne wala kitna bhi sakht dil ho apne oopar kaboo nahi rakh pata hai.
Mai chalte huye unke samne jakar khadi hui. Us admi ne mere peechhe akar mere gown ki dor ko dheela kar diya aur use khol kar kandhe se utaar diya. Maine apni banhen peechhe ki or karke use uske kam me madad kiya.
Ab mai bhi bilkul nagn thi. Wo admi mere gown ko tah karke ek bakse ke upar rakh diya aur bina kisi awaj ke bahar nikal gaya. Kamre ke darwaje ke band hone ki halki si “clik” ki awaj sun kar swamiji ne apni ankhen kholi. Mujhe apne samne nagn awastha me dekh kar unke hontho par ek halki si muskurahat daud gayee.
Swmi ji ne apna ek hath meri or badha diya. Maine bhi apna hath badha kar unke hath par rakh diya. Unhon ne meri hatheli ko thaam kar halke se apni or kheencha.
Mai apne ghutne mod kar unke samne baith gayee.
Hum dono ghutno ke bal ek doosre ko chhoote huye amne samne baithe the. Us kamre me har or sirf aur sirf uttejna faili hui thi. Mera badan ek adbhut romanch se sihar raha tha. Meri yoni se taral precum bahta huya bahar nikal raha tha.
Swami ji ghutne ke bal uth kar mujhe apni banhon me bhar liya aur apne tapte honthon se mere honthon ko halke se chhua. Mai uttejna bardast nahi kar pa rahi thi. Maine apne hathon me unke sir ko tham liya. Aur mano unke honthon par toot padi. Mere sookhe honth unke honthon ko masalne lage. Maine apni jeebh unke munh me daal di aur unke munh me firane lagi. Meri jeebh ke dhakkon se unki bhi jeebh chup nahi rah saki aur fir dono ki jeebh ek doosre se guttham guttha ho gayee.
Aisa lag raha tha mano mai pahli baar kisi mard ke sampark me aye hoon. Mai sex me pagal ho rahi thi. Magar wo the ki unpar mano koi asar nahi ho raha tha. Kuchh der tak unhon ne mujhe apni kar lene diya fir kandhon se pakad kar mujhe apne se alag kiya. Muje apne se kuchh door kar kuchh lamhon tak mere eke k ang ko nihaarte rahe.
“kyaa…dekh rahe hain…?” mere baal khul kar chehre par bikhar gaye the aur ankhen uttejna me band hui ja rahi thi.
“ Tumhe Rash….” Aaj pahli baar unke munh se apne liye “devi” ki jagah apna naam wo bhi itne pyaar se, sun kar ek baar to wishvaas hi nahi hua.
“ Kya kaha…..kya kaha apne? Ek baar aur pukaro. Pleeese..” mere kan unki mithi awaj ko sunne ke liye taras rahe the.
“ Rash…..Kavita devi.”
“ Nahi Rash…Rash hi theek hai. Mai apki Rash hoon. Kar lo apni deewani ko jee bhar kar pyaar kar lo. Mai apke saath bitaye hare k lamhe ko jeena chati hoon. Jab mai yahan se wapas jaungi to inhe mai apne dil me chhipa kar le jaungi.”
Wo meri baton ko sunkar muskura rahe the. Maine apni hatheli ko age badha kar unke ling ko thaam liya aur use halke halke se sahlane lagi. Beech beech me mai unke neeche latak rahe andkoshon ko bhi mutthi me bhar kar bheench deti.
Maine unke hath ko pakad kar apni ek chhati par rakh kar use halke se daba kar apni ichchha jahir ki.
“ nahi is tarah inko masalne se tumhare kalash me bhara amrit vyarth bekar jayega.”
To be contd.....
*** UPDATE - 32 ***
No comments:
Post a Comment