Kuchh hi der me jaise hi mai unke gadhe saman vishaal lund ki abhyast huyi, unke lund ko poore josh choosne lagi. Kuchh der ki koshishon ke baad unka ling badi mushkil se ek chauthai hi ja paya tha mere munh ke andar. Usse jyada lene ki mujhme himmat nahi thi. Shayad dum hi ghut jata ya mera gala hi fat jata.
Kuchh der baad Swamiji ne mere sir ko apne hathon se thama aur dheere dheere us moosal ke saman ling ko andar thelne lage. Mai apne munh ko jitna khol sakti thi khol di. Unhon ne mere sir ko apne ling ke upar dabana shuru kar diya. Mera dum ghutne laga. Ankhen bahar ko ubal rahi thi. Unka ling mere munh me ghusta chala gaya. Kareeb adhe ling ko unhon ne mere munh ke andar daal diya. Mera jabda dukhne laga tha. Lekin maine unko rokne ki koi koshish nahi ki. Do pal us awastha me ruk kar unhon ne ek jhatke me apne ling ko poora bahar nikala aur mere sir ko chhod diya.
Mai apne gale ko thaam kar Ratna ke banhon me gir padi. Mai us awastha me pasre huye jor jor se saanse le rahi thi. Unke ling ke karan kafi der tak mujhe saans rok kar rahna pada tha. Mujhe aisa lag raha tha mano kuchh der aur agar mai us awastha me rahti to shayad behosh hi ho jati. Mai Ratna ke seene me apne munh ko chhipa kar kuchh der tak khansti rahi.
Trilokanandji ne mere reshmi balon ko apni hatheli me liya aur apne ling par lage veerya ko usme ponchh diya. Wapas unhon ne apne ling par tauliya rakh diya. Aur kuchh der ankh band karke na jane kis sadhna me leen ho gaye. Mai Kuchh der tak Ratna ki god me padi apni saanson ko vyavasthit karti rahi. Kuchh der baad jab mai kuchh normal hui to apne aap ko samhaal kar Swami ji ke samne wapas sir jhukaye unke ankhen kholne ka intezaar karte rahe.
Kuchh der baad wapas unki awaj sunai di to pata chala ki unhon ne apni ankhen khol di hain. Unhon ne Ratna se kaha,
" Mai santusht hoon. Devi mere jism ki kaamjwala kit apish ko sahne ke liye upyukt hai. Iske jism me wo shakti hai ki kaam ki parkashtha me bhi ye uff nahi karegi. Bahut sundar devi ati sundar.” Unhon ne age kaha,” Devi Ratna mere mahaprasad ko graham karne ke liye ise jo jo hidayton ko palan karna padega wo ise samjha diya hai na. Ye hamare bandhano ko, is ashram ke niyamon ko palan karne ke liye poore dil se raji hai na? Bina lene wale ki poori rajamandi ke mai kisi ko bhi mahaprasad nahi deta. Mere mahaprasaad ko bina kisi kintu parantu ke sweekar karne wala hi fal pata hai. Kisi tarah ki jhijhak ho to tum abhi bhi uth kar yahan se ja sakti ho."
” Swami maine ise ek baar to samjha diya tha. Abhi apke samne dobara samjha deti hoon” Ratna ne fir mujhse kaha, " tumhe yahan rahne ke liye jin jin niyamo ka palan karna padega wo mai tumko suna ti hoon. Tumhe is ashram ke har niyam ka palan bina kisi virakti ke karna padega. Agar kisi par koi bhi shanka ho to pahle hi uska nivaran kar lena."
Mai Swami ji ke samne mai hath jode usi tarah nagn baithi hui thi. Maine sir hilakar apni sweekriti di.
" tumhe ek hafte ke liye is ashram me rahna padega bina kisi se mile bina bahar ki roshni dekhe." Ratna ne kaha
"mujhe manjoor hai" Maine apni sweekriti di.
" is poore hafte tum yahan se bahar nahi ja sakti. Chahe kitna bhi jaroori kaam kyon na a pade. Tumhe ye saat din Swamiji ke saath inke kamre me gujarne honge. " Ratna ne age bataya.
" mujhe manjoor hai"
" Tumhe ashram me niwas ke dauraan swamiji ki sewa poore tan aur man se karni hogi. Tumhe apna tan inke hawale karna hooga. Is dauraan tumhare dimag aur tumhare jism par sirf aur sirf Swamiji ka haq rahega. Tum ek tarah se ek hafte ke liye swamiji kikisi byahta ki tarah hi sewa karni hai."
" mujhe manjoor hai. Mai poore tan man se inki sewa karoongi"
" tum inke kisi bhi adesh ka ullanghan nahi kar sakti. Inke adesh ke bina tum kuchh nahi karogi. Ye tumhe jaisa chahenge waise bhogenge."
" Aap duvidha me na paden swami mai apki daasi ban kar rahoongi. Kisi gulaam ki tarah apki sewa karoongi. Aap bus mujhe apni chhatra chhaya me rahne ka mauka den" maine kaha.
" is poore ek hafte tum kisi tarah ka koi bhi vastr bina Swamiji ki agya ke nahi dharan kar sakti. Tumhe bikul nagn rahna hoga. Tumko usi halat me ashram me ghoomna firna padega. Is asram ka koi bhi shishya tumhare jism ko bhog sakta hai magar tumhari kokh me amrit varsha karne ka haq sirf aur sirf swami ji ko hoga." Usne akhir me kaha.
" Apka har adesh sir ankhon par. " maine unke charno par apna sir jhukaya, “ mai aapko vachan deta hoon ki meri or se aapko kisi tarah ki koi pareshani ka samna nahi karna padega.”
" Bahut achchha theek hai devi tum kal subah a jana" Swami ji ne mere sir par hath rakha, “ Devi Ratna kal ke karyakram ke bari me ise achchhe se samjha dena. Kal ise kafi mehnat karni hai. Isliye aaj bharpoor aram karle.”
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Kuchh der baad Swamiji ne mere sir ko apne hathon se thama aur dheere dheere us moosal ke saman ling ko andar thelne lage. Mai apne munh ko jitna khol sakti thi khol di. Unhon ne mere sir ko apne ling ke upar dabana shuru kar diya. Mera dum ghutne laga. Ankhen bahar ko ubal rahi thi. Unka ling mere munh me ghusta chala gaya. Kareeb adhe ling ko unhon ne mere munh ke andar daal diya. Mera jabda dukhne laga tha. Lekin maine unko rokne ki koi koshish nahi ki. Do pal us awastha me ruk kar unhon ne ek jhatke me apne ling ko poora bahar nikala aur mere sir ko chhod diya.
Mai apne gale ko thaam kar Ratna ke banhon me gir padi. Mai us awastha me pasre huye jor jor se saanse le rahi thi. Unke ling ke karan kafi der tak mujhe saans rok kar rahna pada tha. Mujhe aisa lag raha tha mano kuchh der aur agar mai us awastha me rahti to shayad behosh hi ho jati. Mai Ratna ke seene me apne munh ko chhipa kar kuchh der tak khansti rahi.
Trilokanandji ne mere reshmi balon ko apni hatheli me liya aur apne ling par lage veerya ko usme ponchh diya. Wapas unhon ne apne ling par tauliya rakh diya. Aur kuchh der ankh band karke na jane kis sadhna me leen ho gaye. Mai Kuchh der tak Ratna ki god me padi apni saanson ko vyavasthit karti rahi. Kuchh der baad jab mai kuchh normal hui to apne aap ko samhaal kar Swami ji ke samne wapas sir jhukaye unke ankhen kholne ka intezaar karte rahe.
Kuchh der baad wapas unki awaj sunai di to pata chala ki unhon ne apni ankhen khol di hain. Unhon ne Ratna se kaha,
" Mai santusht hoon. Devi mere jism ki kaamjwala kit apish ko sahne ke liye upyukt hai. Iske jism me wo shakti hai ki kaam ki parkashtha me bhi ye uff nahi karegi. Bahut sundar devi ati sundar.” Unhon ne age kaha,” Devi Ratna mere mahaprasad ko graham karne ke liye ise jo jo hidayton ko palan karna padega wo ise samjha diya hai na. Ye hamare bandhano ko, is ashram ke niyamon ko palan karne ke liye poore dil se raji hai na? Bina lene wale ki poori rajamandi ke mai kisi ko bhi mahaprasad nahi deta. Mere mahaprasaad ko bina kisi kintu parantu ke sweekar karne wala hi fal pata hai. Kisi tarah ki jhijhak ho to tum abhi bhi uth kar yahan se ja sakti ho."
” Swami maine ise ek baar to samjha diya tha. Abhi apke samne dobara samjha deti hoon” Ratna ne fir mujhse kaha, " tumhe yahan rahne ke liye jin jin niyamo ka palan karna padega wo mai tumko suna ti hoon. Tumhe is ashram ke har niyam ka palan bina kisi virakti ke karna padega. Agar kisi par koi bhi shanka ho to pahle hi uska nivaran kar lena."
Mai Swami ji ke samne mai hath jode usi tarah nagn baithi hui thi. Maine sir hilakar apni sweekriti di.
" tumhe ek hafte ke liye is ashram me rahna padega bina kisi se mile bina bahar ki roshni dekhe." Ratna ne kaha
"mujhe manjoor hai" Maine apni sweekriti di.
" is poore hafte tum yahan se bahar nahi ja sakti. Chahe kitna bhi jaroori kaam kyon na a pade. Tumhe ye saat din Swamiji ke saath inke kamre me gujarne honge. " Ratna ne age bataya.
" mujhe manjoor hai"
" Tumhe ashram me niwas ke dauraan swamiji ki sewa poore tan aur man se karni hogi. Tumhe apna tan inke hawale karna hooga. Is dauraan tumhare dimag aur tumhare jism par sirf aur sirf Swamiji ka haq rahega. Tum ek tarah se ek hafte ke liye swamiji kikisi byahta ki tarah hi sewa karni hai."
" mujhe manjoor hai. Mai poore tan man se inki sewa karoongi"
" tum inke kisi bhi adesh ka ullanghan nahi kar sakti. Inke adesh ke bina tum kuchh nahi karogi. Ye tumhe jaisa chahenge waise bhogenge."
" Aap duvidha me na paden swami mai apki daasi ban kar rahoongi. Kisi gulaam ki tarah apki sewa karoongi. Aap bus mujhe apni chhatra chhaya me rahne ka mauka den" maine kaha.
" is poore ek hafte tum kisi tarah ka koi bhi vastr bina Swamiji ki agya ke nahi dharan kar sakti. Tumhe bikul nagn rahna hoga. Tumko usi halat me ashram me ghoomna firna padega. Is asram ka koi bhi shishya tumhare jism ko bhog sakta hai magar tumhari kokh me amrit varsha karne ka haq sirf aur sirf swami ji ko hoga." Usne akhir me kaha.
" Apka har adesh sir ankhon par. " maine unke charno par apna sir jhukaya, “ mai aapko vachan deta hoon ki meri or se aapko kisi tarah ki koi pareshani ka samna nahi karna padega.”
" Bahut achchha theek hai devi tum kal subah a jana" Swami ji ne mere sir par hath rakha, “ Devi Ratna kal ke karyakram ke bari me ise achchhe se samjha dena. Kal ise kafi mehnat karni hai. Isliye aaj bharpoor aram karle.”
To be contd.......
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